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12/31/2002: "New Year's eve"
Well, here I am getting ready to go out for New Year's Eve. I'm wearing this silver tank top I got at Guess and red lipstick and red nail polish, and my only plans for the night are eating dinner with Shannon and then meeting my parents to see a movie. As much time and preparation I put into my looks tonight, you'd think I had a hot date or something.
Actually, the only boy who expressed interest in seeing me tonight decided to go to Toronto instead. Little does he know just how unstressed and calm I feel when I don't talk to him at all for a week. He told me that he'd just realized that he's a rude bastard, 'bout damn time he had an epiphany like that. And he wonders why he's not married yet; he says he hates people, but in truth, I think he just drives everyone away with his expectations that there's something about them that he's going to hate.
For Christmas, my aunt and uncle sent me a book about the Paradoxical Commandments. Some of you might have heard of these; I hadn't before this, and I found them really insightful.
One of them says, "People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered. Love them anyways." It reasons that when we decide to dislike people because they're demanding, or believe in things that you don't, or don't believe in things that you do, or have weaknesses that you dislike, or any other reason you can think of to dislike someone, that we're limiting the happiness in our life because we're limiting how much love we give out, and in turn, receive.
So that's my New Year's piece of wisdom. All the paradoxical commandments are ones that seem a little impossible and contradict what we learn in life, but they made me stop and think.
On a completely different note, I got my grades yesterday. The one class that I honest to God thought that I'd failed and would have to retake, I ended up getting a B in it. Overall, I had three A's and three B's, landing me on the Dean's list for the third semester in a row. So if you see me buying a ridiculeous quantity of clothing and/or shoes and/or video games, just nod and smile and figure I'm rewarding myself. And if you want to help reward me too, go ahead. ;)
(Or you can just do as my evil-bitch-Big did and say, "It's no big deal that you got good grades, your classes are easy." I don't need praise. Really.)
I bought a hair straightener the other day, and I've fallen in love with it. It has a ceramic plate, rather than a metal one, so it gets hot enough and does the job fast enough that I can use it pretty regularly without damaging my hair. Or so the three hairdressers in my life say. Let's hope they're right!